I Suffer

Once we have seen that our afflictions are no other than enlightenment, we too can ride joyfully on the waves of birth and death.

Thich Nhat Hahn

I suffer from mindless consumption.

I suffer from binge eating disorder.

I suffer from sugar addiction.

I suffer from bulimia nervosa disorder (bulimic).

I suffer from body dysmorphia disorder.

I suffer from drug addiction.

I suffer from alcoholism.

I suffer from over-exercising.

I suffer with not being good enough.

I suffer with self judgement and criticism.

I suffer with judgment and criticism of others.

I suffer from past regrets and memories.

I suffer from NEEDING to be right and proving someone else wrong.

I suffer from the need to be better than others.

I suffer with not knowing who I Am.

I suffer with not knowing why I’m here.

I suffer with worrying.

I suffer from being ignorant.

I suffer from being arrogant.

I suffer from being impatient.

I suffer with explaining myself clearly.

I suffer with not loving myself unconditionally.

I suffer with not loving others unconditionally.

I suffer with not understanding myself.

I suffer with not understanding others.

I suffer from lack of confidence.

I suffer with over-compensation. My “fake confidence” and pretending that I know everything because I lack the knowledge of whatever topic I’m discussing with someone about.

I suffer with trusting and believing in myself.

I suffer from not being able to be empathetic.

I suffer with not knowing how to be vulnerable.

I suffer with not knowing how to communicate how I feel, to myself and others.

I suffer with not wanting to cry.

I suffer with not being able to admit when I’m weak.

I suffer with not being able to be sensitive with myself.

I suffer from not being sensitive to others feelings.

I suffer with keeping all my emotions/feelings bottled up inside.

I suffer from being passive aggressive to others and not knowing how to communicate in a respectful manner.

I suffer with admitting that I suffer.

I suffer from having a huge ego and not being able to understand/control it.

I suffer with the regret of treating loved ones horribly in the past.

I suffer with not being able to wake up early in the morning.

I suffer from not doing the right thing.

I suffer with not knowing what the right thing is.

I suffer with needing validation from others.

I suffer from caring too much what others think about me.

I suffer from not being patient.

I suffer with not being present.

I suffer from over-planning.

I suffer from over-thinking.

I suffer from not trusting myself.

I suffer from not trusting others.

I suffer with not knowing how to be the authentic me.

I suffer from loneliness.

I suffer everyday and with so much more.

I’ve thought for so long that I’ve been doing something wrong. I didn’t tell anyone. Nor did I know how to. I went about my daily life and suffered in silence. Thinking I may be judged and looked at as a nuisance for admitting my suffering.

TODAY, I AM HERE TO SAY, I SUFFER ALL THE TIME.

I recognize now that suffering is a part of life, and it will never go away. I choose to be honest by embracing the fact that I suffer.

I think and hope that when I embrace and notice this suffering, is when I will be able to release and grow from it. Although it may seem like quite the paradox, admitting suffering in order to release it, I’m giving it a shot.

My whole life, I’ve taken suffering and subconsciously ignored it, buried it, secretly fought with it and let it eat me alive, or blamed it on someone else’s wrongdoings. No longer do I choose to do that.

I choose to embrace suffering.

How about you?

Do you suffer?

Take a moment to think about what you suffer from/with?

I’d love to hear.

Maybe I’m not the only one. Who knows.

Reach out to me in the comments or at mitchywilder@gmail.com

From my heart to yours,

I Love You all and I wish you beautiful moments.

—-Mitchy

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2 Comments Leave a comment

  1. I suffer from over thinking.
    I suffer from focusing on the things that could go wrong instead of right.
    I suffer from neglecting my womb when she tells me somethings not right for me.
    I suffer from feeling anxious often.

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